why cant things go back to the way they were? i miss everything.my mom , shes alive but not living.i wish she would realize how much i neeed her. i dont understand whyy things happen. i try to be perfect and not argue. i hate feeling this way. i feel so alone. no one understands.

why can't i just go out and have a good time?
why am i always so depressed?

i got my permit, my burfday wasnt  how
i planned it but i'm not complaining
my moms home and i wish it
wasnt this hard

-sigh-

yet again, another disappointment

but hey thats nothing new. right?